cause this life is too short to live it just for you

ok let me start with this:
i am standing near the busstop waiting for, not suprisingly, the bus. i was standing under a tree next to the sidewalk in order to partake in its shade giving abilities. because i was at the last stop of the route, the bus could come in from either direction on either side of the street. so i look behind, and there is this old woman just standing there maybe like two feet away. just standing, and staring my direction. this totally freaked me the fuck out. regardless, i turned and tried to pretend i did not know she was there. i tried to convince myself that she was waiting on the bus too, and was, like myself, enjoying a bit of shade while she waited. if she was saying anything to me, i would not have been able to hear it because of my decision to listen to my zune any time i take the bus. the bus eventually arrives, i board, and through my periphery i can see she has not budged. once i am on the bus, and take my seat. i notice she has moved to the spot i was standing in prior to getting on the bus. she then appears to watch me as the bus pulls away. how fuggin' pod person is that?! madness i say, madness!!

at any rate. i am taking the bus up to best buy. it was requested that i come in, without explaining why. i am going to guess that it is to sign my termination paperwork. i gotta be honest, if that is the case, i may be filled with never ending rage. i can really find something better to do with three hours of my time than going to sign a piece of paper. they would shit out of luck if had a car, because i certainly would not waste the gas to do that. plus, how do they feel that it is even rational to expect people to come in just to be fired. there should be some kind of law preventing. especially with cost of travel these days. if i had not already purchased a bus pass for the week i sure as hell was not going to waste four dollars and three hours on this trip. i mean it is not as if you have to agree to being fired. why the hell is there even a form for that? as if not signing it would garner you employment again.

if i am still employed, the i will still be pissed, but only slightly less so than previously stated. i am just that irritaded with the whole situation. sure i could be upset that i have missed a week of work, but they have to pay me for missed hours. sure i can cry about the stress i have had to put up with, but having nothing to get up for in the morning is suprisingly not as stressful as one would imagine. i think the thing that would irk me the most i having to do their inventory on sunday, tuesday, and wednesday for their inspection.

needless to say, i am already looking into travel arrangements for myself and my belongings back to evansville. checking in on rental prices, talking with family, what have you. plans that will go into effect when i get the official ruling. i know most people would think this is being extremely negative, but consider these facts. things do not typically work out in my favor. the more i rely on things to just work themselves out, they more epiic their failure. also, i failed to mention that the gm had already contacted my transfer store and told him he expected me to be fired. this was before hr even contacted me. when i mentioned this to hr, she seemed not concerned in the least. if that is not foretelling you were planning to fire someone before the issue was even remotely resolved, i do not what is. it would be like calling someone's family members to let them know they will be dead on friday. then when they end up murderred, not expecting be a key suspect in the crime.

this has clearly been a premeditated act. which i have already contacted hr about their plans to fire employees from the warehouse for theast two months. they also seemed mildy uninterested in that information as well. well lucky me, it has come to fruition, so either way, this is long from over. if i have a job, then i am going to pursue a case against the gm. if i do not have a job, then i will pursue a case against best buy. either way, i will aspire to earn my job back. of course not at the same location, but none the less, the goal is the same.

all in all, i expect and prepare for the worst. if something good happens instead, then will pleasantly suprised. this is my primary tactic for avoiding disappointment.

when darkness turns to light, it ends tonight

the thing i love abouut updates is usally the addition of new features. the i love about new few features would bhave to be playing with them. i am a gadget pr0n junkie no doubt. so in the last twenty-four hours i have spent a great deal of time poking around with the new features that have been added to my small zune world.

unlike the iPod, all of the zune's updates thus far do not require the purchase of an entirely new unit. although, i will say that the release of major updates are often accompanied by the release of a new zune generation as well. which, omigawd, can i just say i am all too excited about. 120gb harddrive, a sleek metallic finish, but sadly only comes in black. so i will hold out for the newer finishes for the larger size before i upgrade. what will i do with the old zune.... that is a tuffie. i will either ebay it for extra money for the upgrade, or give it to a homeless man with ashy elbows.

so more about the awesome update. the most exciting thing would have to be the addition of the marketplace on the unit itself. for people who already have the unlimited access of the zune pass, this gives the ability of downloading music anywhere there is a wifi hotspot. oh yeah, the wifi capabilities have also received an upgrade too. not only can you now connect to you home network for the purpose of wirelessly syncing your zune. now you can jump on any free wifi anywhere! granted, you cannot sync your zune to pc from just anywhere. so it is not truely location free, but still that is pretty fantastic. top that off with radio tags and i think you have a win.

the nice things about the radio tags would be the elimination of trying to remember a song for later download. with the ability to identify songs, already built in to the zune fm capabilities, the zune can now tag the song on rtd and rt friendly radio stations. it then drops them in a cart for later purchase. if you have the zune pass most of these songs will automatically be free. for those of you with a zune pass, you also know what i mean by "most" -- i am glaring ominously at you disney. then when you are at home, or come to a wifi hotspot you simply open your cart and download them on to the unit. this also works with the available friend share option.

will there be a zune phone in the future. i really hope not. it would seem like such a colossal waste of time and effort. looking at the iPhones, for all the fanatical mayhem and hype surrounding them, the idea is ver poorly thought out. they limit the the mp3 qualities to make room for a phone. now if this advent had come after the first iPod i would have been like, "wow, amazing, this is incredible!" however, the iPod as gone through umpteen generations and no vast improvements have been made. if they did make a zune phone, henceforth i am calling it the zhone. the h does not have to be there, but i want it to be. at any rate, the zhone should need to be a mp3 device first, and a calling aperature second. i do not even know if i used that word correclty. i am faily certain i did not. a slide out qwerty keyboard would be fantastic. especially to compliment the in zune marketplace access. i suppose if there was internet access, i would have to give the iPod its due, the browser is fantastic. anything less than that on a competing phone would be substandard. one last thing, if you are going to have toouch screen capabilites. for the love of gawd and all that is holie, include the stylus functionality. not all of us have tiny girl fingers like that ass hat steve jobs.

p.s. -- a special note to bill gates, stop making those ftw commercials where you paraded around in orange makeup over yout pastey complexion with jerry seinfeld. i am pretty sure people don't know what you're trying to advertise. have you been taking notes from sony?