cause this life is too short to live it just for you

ok let me start with this:
i am standing near the busstop waiting for, not suprisingly, the bus. i was standing under a tree next to the sidewalk in order to partake in its shade giving abilities. because i was at the last stop of the route, the bus could come in from either direction on either side of the street. so i look behind, and there is this old woman just standing there maybe like two feet away. just standing, and staring my direction. this totally freaked me the fuck out. regardless, i turned and tried to pretend i did not know she was there. i tried to convince myself that she was waiting on the bus too, and was, like myself, enjoying a bit of shade while she waited. if she was saying anything to me, i would not have been able to hear it because of my decision to listen to my zune any time i take the bus. the bus eventually arrives, i board, and through my periphery i can see she has not budged. once i am on the bus, and take my seat. i notice she has moved to the spot i was standing in prior to getting on the bus. she then appears to watch me as the bus pulls away. how fuggin' pod person is that?! madness i say, madness!!

at any rate. i am taking the bus up to best buy. it was requested that i come in, without explaining why. i am going to guess that it is to sign my termination paperwork. i gotta be honest, if that is the case, i may be filled with never ending rage. i can really find something better to do with three hours of my time than going to sign a piece of paper. they would shit out of luck if had a car, because i certainly would not waste the gas to do that. plus, how do they feel that it is even rational to expect people to come in just to be fired. there should be some kind of law preventing. especially with cost of travel these days. if i had not already purchased a bus pass for the week i sure as hell was not going to waste four dollars and three hours on this trip. i mean it is not as if you have to agree to being fired. why the hell is there even a form for that? as if not signing it would garner you employment again.

if i am still employed, the i will still be pissed, but only slightly less so than previously stated. i am just that irritaded with the whole situation. sure i could be upset that i have missed a week of work, but they have to pay me for missed hours. sure i can cry about the stress i have had to put up with, but having nothing to get up for in the morning is suprisingly not as stressful as one would imagine. i think the thing that would irk me the most i having to do their inventory on sunday, tuesday, and wednesday for their inspection.

needless to say, i am already looking into travel arrangements for myself and my belongings back to evansville. checking in on rental prices, talking with family, what have you. plans that will go into effect when i get the official ruling. i know most people would think this is being extremely negative, but consider these facts. things do not typically work out in my favor. the more i rely on things to just work themselves out, they more epiic their failure. also, i failed to mention that the gm had already contacted my transfer store and told him he expected me to be fired. this was before hr even contacted me. when i mentioned this to hr, she seemed not concerned in the least. if that is not foretelling you were planning to fire someone before the issue was even remotely resolved, i do not what is. it would be like calling someone's family members to let them know they will be dead on friday. then when they end up murderred, not expecting be a key suspect in the crime.

this has clearly been a premeditated act. which i have already contacted hr about their plans to fire employees from the warehouse for theast two months. they also seemed mildy uninterested in that information as well. well lucky me, it has come to fruition, so either way, this is long from over. if i have a job, then i am going to pursue a case against the gm. if i do not have a job, then i will pursue a case against best buy. either way, i will aspire to earn my job back. of course not at the same location, but none the less, the goal is the same.

all in all, i expect and prepare for the worst. if something good happens instead, then will pleasantly suprised. this is my primary tactic for avoiding disappointment.