this love has taken it's toll on me. she said good-bye too many times before.

so it's not too much longer until my next birthday, i guess i'll be spending it alone this year, due to finals and whatnot. sooner or later i will have the time off work to go home for christmas. i'm planning to have a birthday lunch for Miss Betsy at the dorms. hopefully lots of people show up, becuase i want her to feel that people really do appreciate her. as for my own birthday plans, i may try and get out to louisville the following weekend, but that all depends on whether or not i have some friends to go with. most of the people i know will be heading back home that friday. so i am sure that i will have at least one friend who will be in louisville that i can hang out with. i also miss mike, i mean i get to talk to him almost everyday, but it's not the same as being able to come home after class or work just to lounge on the couch and have him around. or if i was sleeping he would come along a wake me up for reasons unknown to anyone but him. he was always great to go out with, whenever there was the few times i actually didn't to be in the house. i can't wait until i can hang out with him more. maybe we'll have some time to do that with the holiday coming up. i know i have to go to my families for christmas, but afterwards i'll have free time until i have to be back at the dorms. so i'm looking forward to my holidays coming up. but we'll see how the new year's break goes after he is done visiting his family, and possibly comes to hang out with me or something, i dunno.