2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake, "can you help me unravel my latest mistake. i don't love him. winter just wasn't my season.

well, after an exhausting search -- i say exhausting, but i really was just tire to begin with -- i have come to the conclusion that purple tubesocks just simply do not exist. so i decided to look them up on the internet and lo and behold, there they were at a sport site. duh! tubesocks, i mean who else would wear them in this day and age. so my next option then is to go to some sort of sporting goods store and see if can actually just purchase them there. everything else by comparison should be cake. the store has the ears, paint (of the body/hair variety) as well as a costume that can be suitably made over into what i want to use it for with just a minor adjustment or two. now that i have found the most crucial piece in my costume scavanger hunt, well at least found a reasonable lead, i have to think about how i'm going to pull this all together. there would be some minor surgery that would nee to be made t o make the costume what i want to look like. only slight changes from what it already includes. but the majority of these feaures will require me to sew. i mean not that sewing is hard, it's just very, very difficult to do. plus i'm not that adept or comfortable around sharp pointy things. in fact, i have a note from my doctor telling me to avoid them whenever possible. so any thing that i'm going to have to alter is going take a lot of patience and time, neither of which i have ample amounts to spare, so i guess we'll see how that all turns out in the end i s'pose.
one midterm coming up next week. that's all i have is one, and i am extremely stressed over it. which i pretty odd for me because i always take tests with a grain of salt. but i just feel so blindsided by this one. normally, when i'm in a class the reason i don't give to fucks about an upcoming exam is because if i do the assignments and the readings or whatever the basis of the class is supposed to be on, and i attend classes i just do well on them. i can only blame this my " either i know it, or i don't theory", it's pretty self-explanatory. but this one, the teacher has done absolutely nothing to prepare us for an exam. or at least that is my opinion. every class up until last week has been a vast majority of just empty nonsensical ramblings not even pertaining to the subject. and just last week we started the book. he lectures are pointless, and we have midterm this coming thurs, on what? i have no earthly idea. he says its supposed to be over the book, which we just began discussing in class. what the hell? well i suppose if i fail miserably on it i can always withdraw. i'm usually not one to backdown from stuff, but i know i can't fight a fire with a moist towellet.
ummmm, i can't really think of anything else at the moment. still not a millionaire, still not an actor, still think that lifes unfair as i sit on my tractor.