don't hate me, don't regret me, don't ever forget me. where ever you go, what ever you do, don't say i never loved you.

yesterday was a day of doing something i shouldnt have namely staying up long after i was supposed to be in bed after being up all night sitting nightdesk at the dorms but i am pretty sure that was just a one time thing i dont really feel like losing sleep just so i can chat on the internet and watch new episodes of the real world even if it is in austin and they did fuck up some guys face in the first week there hehe take that celebrity facimile

once again with intentions of seeing the fantastic four despite its lame reviews but my attempts were again thrawted by my lack of an ability to stay awake later than 6 pm its like im a 65 year old already however i did manage to finish a book and review some japanese for the coming semester i did suprisingly well actually on the quiz they provided for the book i had i think i would be able to be a great tutor in the coming semester im still debating on whether or not to start my third language this year or next but im thinking that next year would be more flexible as far as time constraints are concerned

im also seriuosly considering pledging even though im not really sure how or what exactly that entails in fact i dont think i want to do it at all i still have some reseverations about have some punk telling me what to do like im actually listening so i think i could try out but that i would definitely fail not because i wouldnt be good at being a drunken frat boy or because the idea almost makes me kind of vomit to be honest with you i think that i am just to certifiably defiant

there are some good and bad concerns about the pending semester ive decided to improve my gpa by retaking some classes that i didnt do so well in my previous years lets just say my freshman year was a little more than a letdown for me so i have couple of classes i would like to retake im not a perfectionist i just really cant stand knowing that i did so poorly in throw away classes the positive side to this i may get to see some of my old friends from lcc or whatever they have changed their name to now and perhaps get some of the issues fixed that are terribly wrong with my transcript like why is it that i have over 70 credit hours and im still a freshman can anybody explain that to me another reason is im one class shy of graduating from lcc officially and not just in my head another benefit sorta is that i really really really really want to tranfer schools and get the hell out of dodge or kentucky as the case may be finishing up at lcc would put me at that transition point where i would be an undergraduate transfer student but with my associates both of them and move somewhere else and finish up my major

but first things first baby steps i need to get my arse in a new apartment finish paying off last semesters tuition i'm down to 1500 now mayhaps my mom can help me there and then i can get all the rest of my duckies in a row hopefully all of my tuition assistance goes through this year and i no longer have to deal with problem in the future but if this year has taught me nothing else thus far it has shown unto me that i can put little trust in others